Last night, the night came to wake me up, knocked hard onto my head when I was lost thinking about the Moon's beauty, and shook me up.
Took me outside, where I heard the sound of the sighing breeze,
I saw the Moon; I wanted to feel the moonlight on my face, but I ended up feeling its effulgence which left me all dazzled to embrace.
I wanted to touch its glow; I wanted to hug its radiance and wanted to whisper near its beauty that I have written so much about you.
but all I could manage to whisper is that the night came up to me when I was lost in your thoughts and made me meet you in real.
I felt happy but not satisfied
I left the Moon behind and came back; now I am forcing myself to get lost in her thoughts and hoping that the night will come again and make me meet her in real as well
Is it too much to ask for?
Night? Are you there? I am still waiting...
My heart was known but now has lost somewhere;
You have gone but those nights are still here,
My heart is naïve but not sinful;
I tried to grasp some guilt to make it skinful,
My eyes wandered in the search of you so did my soul;
I found you real just by looking at your lovely kohl,
That was so moronic of me but it's not my fault; it was my heart who came to a halt,
My heart asked, was it me or was it you? Did I try or were we through?
I didn't reply and kept quiet; because my inner self was not up for that fight,
My mind said to let her go while my heart said to hold for a second because she has gone but those nights are still here,
I am in a chimera where I don't know what to do; because I want to do the right thing now but dismally I don't have any clue,
At last, I listened to my mind and now let her go; because those nights are still here and it's time to make a better of it to grow.
You have gone but those nights are still here,
My heart is naïve but not sinful;
I tried to grasp some guilt to make it skinful,
My eyes wandered in the search of you so did my soul;
I found you real just by looking at your lovely kohl,
That was so moronic of me but it's not my fault; it was my heart who came to a halt,
My heart asked, was it me or was it you? Did I try or were we through?
I didn't reply and kept quiet; because my inner self was not up for that fight,
My mind said to let her go while my heart said to hold for a second because she has gone but those nights are still here,
I am in a chimera where I don't know what to do; because I want to do the right thing now but dismally I don't have any clue,
At last, I listened to my mind and now let her go; because those nights are still here and it's time to make a better of it to grow.
"Remember that happiness is a way of travel – not a destination" - Roy M.Goodman.
Roy M. Goodman said "Remember that happiness is a way of travel – not a destination" and it is undoubtedly a great saying. Happiness, what is happiness? What gets into your mind, when you hear this word? Well, the definition differs from person to person, but in the end, it's all about being satisfied from within; this is what happiness is. Right?
Have you ever thought of discovering more about yourself? Have you ever desired to know more about your inner-being? What does it want? Have you ever tried to seek the answer to your existence of being here?
Travel is the only word bashing into my mind right now if you ask me to epitomize my answer in just one word for all the above-said things. If you are thinking of me as a rover person, then let me make myself clear here that I am not fond of traveling, not at all. I never was, I still am not, and if you are thinking of me as a person who likes to spend his weekend either watching a movie, binge-watching Netflix, or writing something, then you are right.
Though after taking time off from the mundane life and then vacating some days in Dehradun, I realized that travel is really good for your soul; it felt to me like I am feeding something healthy to my soul, and fueling yourself with something healthy is crucial. Isn't it?
When I landed up in a ravishing city at 5:00 am,
Although after a long, tedious journey of 7 hours, I landed up in the city which is famous for its scenic panorama, enchanting places (Sahastradhara and Robbers Cave – My personal favorite), and scrumptious world cuisine (still cannot get over any of those fancy cafes). Yes, I am talking about none other than Dehradun; there was something peculiar about the weather, but it was unusual, the smell of the air was peculiar. I felt the pleasant breeze on my face (I still feel it when I think about it). Meanwhile, I reached the hotel and made myself rest flatly.
Places I toured and fell in love with them fervently
Due to limited time, I managed to visit very few places in Dehradun, and I feel every place is worth visiting, but out of those, there were some places I loved fervently.
- Sahastradhara
Sahastradhara means thousandfold spring, is the best-loved tourist destination in Dehradun. The place has the prowess to make you fall in love with the magnetism of a waterfall. Well, it is commonly believed that water that comes out of this fountainhead has some miraculous effects on the soul. However, I believe the same as those phenomenal touches of the waterfall, that feeling of pureness of water has left some unforgettable splashes on me and made me elated. The place looks so scenic in its own way that clicking a momentous picture becomes vital, so do not forget to take one as I did.
- Robber's Cave
It is such an adventurous place to spend your day with your loved ones. The main reason for visiting such a marvelous place is the aura that place has; it will make you allure with its dark theme (seems like an apt place to shoot spooky videos), and you will definitely be gratified by those pebbles touching your feet underneath the water can make your journey even more mesmerizing. Moreover, most importantly, do not forget to have a bona fide DSLR friend (not a pseudo one) by your side, and do not forget to wear your favy attire, of course, (for a superb click) because this place is worth it.
Because #Dehradundiaries is now more than a hashtag for me.
Those innocent roads and that sea-colored sky still remind me of something. I do not know what exactly they remind me of. There was something extraordinary with their presence that I felt good about; maybe there was something special in the redolence of that place I felt good about. I do not know what that was, but I felt rejuvenated, and that's all I needed at this point in time.
I want to feel the breeze, I want to see the rain,
despite I know saying all these are nothing but a complete vain.
I want to fly, I want to feel my wings one more time,
I want to sit on a limb and sing but that would be a perfect crime.
I want to open my wings and touch all the colours of the rainbow,
but they've minced my dreams and prisoned my flow.
I can see others fly while I'm in this cage,
I've wings but now this distorted wings making me rage.
If not on a tree, I'll sing in this cage for freedom,
even if I'm a sufferer of un-freedom.
They've prisoned my body, my wings and the whole me,
but they can never prison my vision.
Saying this can be a chimera but one day I'll be free and that day I'll fly as higher as I can and will sing by landing upon a tree a song of freedom.
I'll wait for someone to come and unlock the cage and open me up,
till then listen to my voice and cheer me up.
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वो अफ़साना जिसे अंजाम तक पहुँचाना न हो मुमकिन उसे एक ख़ूबसूरत मोड़ दे कर छोड़ देना चाहिए (A tale you can't finish, should be left with a beautiful divergence)
We are all insanely in love with movies; we all love to watch movies, especially when it comes to a romantic one. Aren't we? And we all must have been through a beautiful line at the end of the movie (not every, but most) ''and they lived happily ever after''. This typical ending line has made happily ever after seem easily winnable. Is this beautiful line as beautiful as it sounds? Were you too caged by this beauteous line? I don't know about others, but love stories always fascinate me a lot. It seems to me like I am dreaming with open eyes.
This world is wholly perplexed and sometimes beyond my understanding. You meet someone when you don't feel like meeting anyone and when you try to be with someone, you end up being alone. We all want to be happy, we all want to live a happily ever afterlife, but we don't understand what happiness really is? Do we? Happiness is the balance of both the good times and the bad. In any relationship, you'll go through tough times no matter what, no matter how hard you try not to. It's not a choice, it will always be beyond your control, but the happily ever after is a choice you can make. If you'll ever find your concept of happily ever after, recognise that and never let that go at any cost.
Here's my concept of happily ever after, will try to make you all understand with the help of three phases of love
We all encounter three phases of love in our lifetime
- The first phase of love
This love happens at a very young age, we meet someone, stays for a while and then get apart over silly things. Then you grow up and get older; you look back, think and laugh on yourself by saying, it wasn't love, but the truth is, it was. It was love for what you knew love to be.
- The second phase of love
This love is a hard one. This love teaches you something and makes you stronger than anything else in this world. This love includes immense pain, lies, betrayal, abuse, drama and damage. On the contrary, this is the one where we grow. We realise what we love about love and what we don't love about love. We understand the difference between good and bad humans and become closed, careful, cautious and considerate. We know what we exactly want and don't want after this love.
- The third phase of love
This one comes when you least expect it to, this one comes blindly with no warning. It just creeps on you silently. You don't go looking for this love. It just happens to you. The best thing is you just can't put any wall to escape it. You'll find yourself caring about that person without even trying. You start seeing the beauty in their imperfections. You hide nothing with them. You want marriage and family with them. You thank the universe for them afterwards, and you genuinely love them.
One day, you'll go through the third phase of love to be with the one human being made for you, and then you'll realise why none of the relationships worked. You'll understand why you went through heartache after heartache. You'll surely thank all the pain, all the sorrows because it now has brought so much happiness in your life.
Not every, but some love stories do end with the beautiful line ', And they lived happily ever after.'
Three Phase Concept: Pinterest
Just like a spellbound magic you walked into my life,
that memorable moment when my heart started playing the fife.
The girl had such a perfect look,
like they define fairly in a fairy tale book.
I fell in love with you unknowingly,
my heart started beating fast and my face started glowing even more glowingly.
I wanted the whole world to know how excited I am by being in love with you and I sometimes even stop breathing whenever I see you and wished for the beginning of something new.
I went to tell her that how smitten I am with those eyes but her eyes instantly replied me by saying stop daydreaming, the time stopped at that very moment and my heart started screaming and that too silently.
I once prayed to the universe for a magic,
Without knowing that it is gonna end up as a tragic.
I prayed for her to become me and I become her, just to tell her how much I loved her.
We turned into each other only when I started hating her.
The universe is such a gem, always play skillfully.
I wrote her, her beauty,
her innocence,
her everything
with the ink of my scars but all went in vain,
I should be okay but I
couldn't understand why it gave me so much pain.
I made her realize
that I love her as many times as I could through my writing,
but I
feel that she couldn't sense it as I might not good enough when it comes to citing.
I kept on sending my love
to her but I think she never wanted to take it,
I could've strived hard only if I
knew how to make it.
I would never know
that a broken heart can write so well,
if my life wouldn't have turned slowly into a living hell.
I told her that I
write for you and I wanted her to read all those writings in a memorable
way
but she used to read it just like a stranger, and that's how I became my
own life changer.
If only you can feel
my thoughts, you'd know. I once promised you that I won't stop writing but eventually, I did but only about you just to
grow...
I feel sorry for you
for losing a gem of a person who always stood by your side, but I also want
to thank you because I found me on the cusp of losing you,
I finally confide.
Worth it... Isn't it?
Some talk to you in their free time and some free their time to talk to you - Unknown
Some talk to you in their free time and some free their time to talk to you, but what about those who don’t talk to you even in their free time?
There were days, when they used to talk to each other and suddenly everything changed, now I take deep breathes, think about you, close my eyes tightly and try to sleep at night but end up looking at the dark ceilings which remind me of the darkness in my heart.
He always made sure that you feel good. Do you remember the words he wrote to you and for you? Do you remember any of those? Have you ever re-read them? I bet you never did. Once (not once, many times actually) he said ‘I love you’ but you never responded. I hope when you look up at the sky, all the stars remind you of him and the words he wrote for you with so much love. Maybe, someday you realize how valuable he was.
Someday, you may realize that he truly cared for you, loved you and only you. You were the only one he used to talk. He always tried not to give up on her howbeit she never cared, then he cried and cried until there were no tears left in his eyes not because he is weak but because he loved her. Why did you do that?
No matter how hard and how much you pushed him away, he always came back to you. Not because of any reasons which you thought then but for the reasons which you probably think of today.
Do you remember all the words he wrote and the things that he has done for you? I hope you remember. To be very honest, there was only one problem he had with him and that is he only loved you more. More and more by each passing moment in life. He never asked you for anything. You always heard him saying ‘I have you and that’s enough for me’ or you might not as you didn’t have time for all these bullshits in your life.
He was always there for you, all the time so you don’t forget how much you mean to him. But sadly, one day you forgot. Many things! The little things that he did for you with broad smiles. He waited for you to talk when you were busy but you chose to remain busy for him instead of making one phone call.
Many times he went to sleep with swollen eyes just by thinking of you. No, you were not avoiding him or said ‘I hate you’ but there was something missing which he knew because he could sense it. You wanted to escape, and you did! One day you said nothing, you just lost all the interest all of a sudden or maybe slowly. Maybe! Yes; maybe he had hurt you a little with his words or by avoiding you for an hour. But you know, right? He cared!
You never wanted him, never ever that too he knew but he got
some hope when you addressed him as Landon Carter while thanking over a call
for a birthday gift. He never expected to fall in love with you but eventually, he did and this is the gift he
received, the gift he had been longing for quite some time.
I wanted to text
you, call you and wanted to talk to you. But I connected all the dots in my
mind and realized that it’s too late to do so.
Adaptation: The Mystic Soul
"The emotion was there but it wasn’t spelled out in neon" – Charles Bukowski
There are a lot of things we mean to say but cannot. Sometimes the circumstances are not right or sometimes modus operandi is wrong. But in the end, don’t leave yourself asking “What if?” Rather than this ask “Why not?” So basically come what may don’t kill your pent-up emotions or desires by not telling them to someone, someone special to you. It is completely your call to decide who you want to open up to, who you want to talk to about all these feelings. Don’t think about what will happen next, don’t think about the outcomes, outcomes don’t matter but your emotions, your feelings do.
The emotions are something so different, it empowers you to live with gratitude. But sometimes the emotions are not just enough. Sometimes you need something to attach it to and that something could be you opening to your pent-up emotions to someone.
Do you express your pent-up emotions more often?
Pent-up emotions are that
kind of strong feelings that you don’t express so that they gradually
become more difficult to control afterwards. We all have some suppressed
feelings deep inside our heart and sometimes we get anxious thinking about
those feelings and moreover expressing those feelings to someone, sometimes we
think that “Is it worthwhile telling them?” My answer to this is simple “Anyone
can make you feel how wonderful this world is but only a few will make you feel
how wonderful you're in this world.
So open up to those few, care for those few. Because s/he is the only one who understands you and understanding is the foundation of everything and anything. And if there is no one in your life like them, don’t worry open up to yourself, express your pent-up emotions to yourself because who can understand you better than you itself.
So open up to those few, care for those few. Because s/he is the only one who understands you and understanding is the foundation of everything and anything. And if there is no one in your life like them, don’t worry open up to yourself, express your pent-up emotions to yourself because who can understand you better than you itself.
Ignoring is not the solution, get that
Ignoring is not the solution to
anything, it never was, it can never be and it never will. The more you ignore
your pent-up emotions the more it will grow and not only grow, but it will also start to
overcome you as well. You need to release this growing up demon inside you by
expressing it, by having a huge tussle and conquering it, by becoming strong
enough to acknowledge it by yourself and finding the best way to overcome from
it, the best way to fix it, if it need be.
Acknowledging Ignoring is important, be it your fault, your truth or your pent-up emotions.
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Sorry sounds effortless when we hear it from someone but it takes all the efforts and seems extremely difficult when we need to say it to someone else. Isn’t it? From childhood to adulthood, we all must have heard or said this five-letter word so many times. Sorry is not just a five-letter word, it is actually a complete statement, and according to me, the sorry word is used when we do something inadvertently not when we do something deliberately.
But nowadays, I believe that people just use this word as a formality rather than a genuine apology, like it has become a routine for them to use sorry as an apologizing statement without even knowing the actual meaning of this word.
But nowadays, I believe that people just use this word as a formality rather than a genuine apology, like it has become a routine for them to use sorry as an apologizing statement without even knowing the actual meaning of this word.
Sorry doesn’t mean anything unless you mean it; unless you say it from your very heart
For more emphasis on the above statement, I would like to draw your attention towards a movie called ‘Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara’, you all must have seen the movie and if not then you ought to (it’s my personal opinion though), so there was a scene in that movie where Imraan (Farhan Akhtar) apologizes to Arjun (Hrithik Roshan) and in reply Arjun (Hrithik Roshan) says ‘Say sorry when you really mean it, say it when you’re saying from your heart’. Afterwards, the Imraan (Farhan Akhtar) somehow realizes his mistake and apologizes again with genuity in his voice and cries.
The point to recall that scene was just to make you all understand that an apology is an innate reaction to any mistake but what is the point of an apology if it does not sound meaningful if it does not sound genuine. There is surely no point, right?
The point to recall that scene was just to make you all understand that an apology is an innate reaction to any mistake but what is the point of an apology if it does not sound meaningful if it does not sound genuine. There is surely no point, right?
Saying sorry is important, more important than you ever think
‘To err is human’, man is nothing but just a puppet of errors, and no doubt that we as a human make mistakes and nothing is wrong in that but what wrong is placing the blame of our mistakes on someone else. What takes courage is accepting your mistakes, taking blames of your mistakes on your own shoulder, and many of us fail here. Nobody is perfect, everybody makes mistakes, but when you say sorry, you must mean it.
Learning to apologize is the second thing, first is accepting your mistakes, admitting it and then apologizing for it with the genuity in your tone. It is important to say sorry because it heals you emotionally, when a wrongdoer apologizes for its mistake it makes him/her more powerful, it gives him/her more courage. Saying sorry helps the wrongdoer to forget the past and move ahead, you cannot undo what has been done but it can surely re-build your own personality, it can surely help you to become a better person than you are right now.
Learning to apologize is the second thing, first is accepting your mistakes, admitting it and then apologizing for it with the genuity in your tone. It is important to say sorry because it heals you emotionally, when a wrongdoer apologizes for its mistake it makes him/her more powerful, it gives him/her more courage. Saying sorry helps the wrongdoer to forget the past and move ahead, you cannot undo what has been done but it can surely re-build your own personality, it can surely help you to become a better person than you are right now.
Apologize when you mean it because this is where modesty comes in. Sometimes all we need is time to heal the wounds, sorry cannot heal the wound, but it has an aptness to lessen your pain. So take out time come forward and say ‘SORRY’. Because sorry is not just a penitent statement, it has always been more than that.
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Some people feel the rain, others just get wet ~ Bob Marley
Have you ever wondered about those myriad raindrops fall from the sky? Do they excite you? Do those drops excite you to live more and more and more? Have you ever fallen in love with those drops? Have you ever let those drops come on your face and free your soul from all the sorrows, all the grief? Have you ever get kissed gently by those raindrops? Have you?
No wonder why the monsoon season is considered the best among all the seasons, the most pleasant, the most romantic season, a perfect season to walk with someone special when the day is dark, and the sky is overcast with the cloud. Pour down your love for your loved ones and welcome the rainy season with wide-spreading arms. The rainy days always hold some special type of magic.
I have recently come across a word for those who love rain, those who find happiness and peace of mind during rainy days. The word is ‘Petrichor’, and it means the distinct smell of rain in the air. Or you in a more precise way you can say that the pleasant smell of earth after the rain.
For me, the definition of an ideal rain is when I can feel the gusts of wind and the rattling of windows and when it rains steadily for hours to end. But I really don’t understand why many of us find rainy days so dingy. I seriously don’t understand that how can someone not love the sudden transmutation of earth from this dry, dusty land into a beautiful place, the greenery everywhere, where everything seems so pure, so natural, where flowers are in exotic bloom, everything around seems alive. How can you not love this type of magic?
For once, just close your eyes and imagine you are sitting beside the window, now try to feel the feeling that you’re lost in the world made of books, you’re lost in the aroma of coffee and in the rhythm of the falling rain, try to feel the feeling of sharing this rain with someone, someone you love, try to inhale the earthy smell after rain. How beautiful it sounds?
