Love Is Only a Fluttering Heartbeat Away...
You dreamt of arranging love, hope, and life with him in one single story. You envisioned everything carefully and even framed it beautifully on the wall of your tender heart. You, him, love, life, and peace. Perfect.
He promised you with the words you still hold closest to your heart (endeavoring to decipher the real meaning behind those unwavering words because you thought you couldn't fathom them the way they should've been). Knowing your gullibility, he made you believe that no matter how hard it gets, he'd try to sink as deeper into the most unexplored parts of your heart as he could just to make you smile.
You respected his promises and loved him even more for making them. Little did you know that "promises" need to be replaced with "strenuous efforts" and "trying" with "earnest endeavoring." Else, everything together starts drifting apart. That's what you were most afraid of but eventually happened.
More than a journey or a destination, it's always the company that mattered to you. Misunderstanding, fighting, empathizing, understanding, fixing, staying but not leaving, mattered to you. But nothing of that sort happened; and gradually, the profound love from your side, and the idea of love from his side, disappeared into thin air.
That juncture didn't just break you but tore you apart mercilessly. Now you've become vulnerable, and you genuinely need someone who can wash you over with the needed waves of emotions and stir your soul with the real heart (not disguised). But you're not embracing anything at this moment.
And now if one shares the beautiful moment of their relationship, you advise them to not get attracted to and fooled by decorative conversations with deserted meanings because you don't want them to endure the pain you did and suffer the same way. And, that's truly understandable.
Healing takes time, and you've all the right to take all the time you need. Let your body, your soul feel all the emotions deeply coming from that painful experience and breathe them out in the air. Release that pain from your being.
Accept that you're supposed to meet a few cowards before you meet someone brave enough to wholly love you. And one fine day, you're going to experience true love in its truest sense, and that feeling will take you into the realm of magic.
P.S: Love isn't a "once-in-a-lifetime" kinda thing; it can happen again and again, and when it does, all you should do is have a little bit of faith and let it in! Remember, love is only a fluttering heartbeat away!
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